Mungkin title ni lain sikit dari isi yang bakal dihurai. Tapi tak apa sebab masih menyentuh soal niat. I've once felt stress. Really stress . A bad stress that affect my studies. I can't focus in lectures, I ignore my quiz, I left my classes and I left my tutorial book clean without any mess. So hard to recover until my classmates feel a bit fright to say hi to me. Maybe I look like a zombie to them. Sort of. With unhappy face, fake smiles, plastic laugh ! But when wawa asks me, Ratna ok ? I smiled to her. A very sincere smile showing that I'm ok. It's the first time in a week I feel like this. That moment we just came out from lab after doing some experiments preparing standard solution, dilution process and titration.
I made my parents feel uneasy. I made my sisters uneasy. I don't know whether it's not meant for me or it's just Allah made my route not easy as others. I chose my path. No matter what the upcoming problems and risks, I have to endure it. I'm not going to run away from trials and tribulation. HE made trials and tribulation to make our IMAN grow thicker and stronger. I don't know why I said those things back then. But I'm regretting it now.
A text from my friend, saying TAJDIDKAN NIAT SETIAP HARI !
I tried. But eventhough I start my day with a smile, renew my target and niat everyday , it just don't work for me. Mungkin banyak sangat dosa.
I'm hoping for rays of light.
I'm going to fulfilled my dreams.
What you have dreamed, become a mission :)
Himne Iman :D